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I was sitting in a parent meeting a few months ago for my sweet boys who had signed up for a back packing trip to Wind River mountain range in Pinedale, Wyoming. As I listened to the leader (Jeff) talk about the intensity of the trip, I quickly began to question whether or not my boys would be able to manage the trip at all. I wanted to find reasons to encourage them not to go and help them realize this may not be a great idea, when all of the sudden something happened.
Jeff said he was still looking for a “girl leader” to join the adventure and then he literally called me out on it and said I should try to go.
And get this… (My boys agreed) – what in the world?
I mostly blew it off and headed home for the evening telling Jeff that I would pray about it. (I was pretty much kidding about that though).
But the thought wouldn’t leave my mind, so I began to question the idea. “God is this you”? Are you behind this?
I emailed Jeff the next day and said, “I’m going to see if I can get the time off of work and we’ll go from there.”
I mentioned it to my team at work, and that’s when it became clear. They said, “You better go”.
That was about 2 months ago now.
Let me tell you something, the adventure has already begun. The boys and I have shopped for gear together, both in the stores and on-line, and just yesterday we met with the rest of our group to pack our backpacks and load them into a trailer. It’s official now. I’m really going.
We leave first thing Monday morning. (Lord help us).
You see yes, I am worried about the fact that Jeff has repeatedly said that this is the hardest thing we will EVER do in our lives.
And… that he let me know that I should start taking some ibuprofen the day before we leave. I am also concerned about the fact that my pack weights 25+ pounds and that I won’t be able to wash my hair for a week.
Oh there’s more too… You know, things like altitude sickness, blisters, and the biggest thing… Creatures – bears and what not. Who gets up and goes to the bathroom when there’s bears outside? (I’ll soon find out if the answer is me or not).
But here’s the thing. I cannot deny that this is God’s idea and because of that, I say yes Lord.
So, stretch me Papa. Beyond my wildest imagination and then some. Show me how strong Jen really is, and please keep us all safe too.
Join us in listening to Jordan O’Brien share his testimony with us on today’s episode of of the 1MProject.
Don’t miss week 2 with Nate Johnson… What a powerful challenge he gives us to let the Holy Spirit be the Comforter He was sent to be.
Oh my goodness, You are NOT going to want to miss listening to the testimony of our first guest on the 1MProject. Mr. Nate Johnson is a powerful example of a life radically changed by the Gospel. Enjoy!
One of my favorite things to do is to throw on some Bethel worship music and lay face down on the floor for a while. It has served as a pretty therapeutic exercise for me over the last few years. It’s not an unusual thing for my older boys to come home from work or spending time with their friends to find mom laying on the floor again. It’s just what I do.
The other night while I was laying there, God was reminding me of how close He is in every season.
I just sensed the need to be reminded to make sure to reserve a spot for Him wherever I go, because He’ll be tagging along whether I acknowledge Him or not.
I’m never alone. You are never alone. Even when the enemy would want you to believe you are… There’s a space reserved right next to you for the One who loves you most… (Every single moment of every single day).
And do you know what the word RESERVED means in the Greek?
from a prim. word téros (a guard)
to watch over, to guard
When you place your life in the hands of your Maker and you ask Him to teach you how to dream again… You can trust Him to protect you as you venture out into new territory, because He’s going with you.
My how life can change.
I enjoyed a quiet evening outside on the deck last night listening to the sounds of summer. As I sat there, I was reflecting on where my heart and life were at just one year ago. My whole world was falling apart and I was clinging to the Lord with every ounce that I had left.
It was a desperate cling. Have you been there?
It’s a place where you have to take a good look in the mirror and ask yourself if you really believe what you say you believe. A place where the only option is to let go and where holding on would just prolong the hurt.
It’s called surrender.
The journey has been liberating and painful at the same time. What a mystery.
All I know is that the process has left me incredibly grateful.
No,I don’t have all the answers to my questions, but I do feel blessed when I look back on the beautiful life that God has given me. I became a better woman in my thirties and loved the life God gave me while I grew.
This song reflects my heart tonight.
At the beginning of this year, I worked on my 2017 dream board and I hung it on my wall so I could look at it throughout the year.
In the center of the board, I pasted the word FLOURISH and then I added more words to it from there.
I looked up every verse I could find to help me understand better what flourishing should look like, because I am recreating a new dream for my life and I’m not even sure what I want it to look like.
Jeremiah 17:7-8 “Blessed is the woman who trusts in the Lord and whose confidence is in Him. She will be like a tree transplanted beside the water, which sends out her roots by a stream, she will not be afraid when heat comes; for her leaves remain flourishing, and she will not be anxious in the year of drought and will not cease to bear fruit.”
One thing that I have discovered is that I’m not just dreaming for this year, I’ve begun to dream for a whole new future. And with that thought, I want to stretch myself in every area of my life to reach for things I’ve never allowed myself to dream for before. I want to destroy every limitation that could possibly try to stand against my God-given abilities and trust my Daddy to meet me in that place.
So, I’ve applied for Seminary, because why not?
I’m taking a backpacking trip to Yellowstone National Park with my favorite twins, because I’ve never done that before.
I’m going to take sailing lessons this summer, because I feel like God wants me to.
I’m launching a podcast and project this summer, because I want to reach 1 Million people for Jesus before I’m 50.
Here’s my first canvas painting, because I decided I needed to try painting 🙂
Everything inside me knows and feels that this isn’t how life was supposed to go, my family is broken. I wasn’t supposed to be raising my boys by myself and tonight the thought of it has gotten the best of me. I had a moment where I let myself feel the cost to the road paved by divorce. I wanted to scream, but instead I cried… again.
I’m not supposed to be living with my parents as a 40 years old mom. I wasn’t created to be sitting solo at awards ceremonies and school functions. This sure isn’t where I thought life would bring me, and honestly I’m frustrated with it today.
I don’t see myself as a victim, I see myself as a fighter. I’m surviving and I do see light from down inside this hole. Yes I will make it, and yes I still believe that my best days are ahead of me. I know that God has a plan and that all things work together for good. Those truths do bring comfort to my aching heart.
While I was laying in bed and chatting away with all of my questions and complaints, God gently reminded me that He’s been waiting for me to be honest with Him with my mess. I love that He can handle my anger. He’s completely fine with me being real and that feels… good.
I know one day I will be looking back and I will see how far I’ve come, but I don’t ever want to forget where I am right now.