Every once in a while I get a quiet night to myself where I get the chance to reflect on life. I think I have been purposefully filling up my calendar just to make time go by faster. The other night, my body let me know that it was time to rest, so I spent most of day doing just that. I had reached my limit. While resting, my mind wandered and now I’m going to attempt to write out what my heart is trying to feel.
Several months ago I discovered a book that held my attention the whole way through. The words were deep, rich, and meaningful. I love it when I find those components in a book. The author wrote in my language,transparent and raw, which connected me to her story and her heart.
The book is titled “Heart Made Whole” by Christa Black Gifford. I read the book in just a few days and then moved on with my spiraling-out-of-control life. Fast forward to last night. Here I was laying in bed, fighting a fever and a cold and I pulled out the book again. As I reread through Chapter 2, Managing Trauma, the words ministered to me all over again.
“To my amazement, He wasn’t nearly as interested in getting everyone to like me as much as He wanted to be invited into the problem, be the solution, dig up some of the old lies within the foundation of my heart, heal me, and then make something good out of the ordeal”.
Isn’t it just like God to be able to make something good out of something horrifically bad.
Throughout the entire book, Christa encourages the reader to do a heart check on a regular basis. Like literally place your hand over your heart and ask your heart “how are you doing today heart, you okay?“
Over the last few months, I’ve done this over and over… Most of the time, I haven’t liked hearing what my heart had to say.
Tonight, I’m encouraged, because I’ve discovered that I’m doing good.
Say what? Yes, good. And let me tell you why that is so good.
The Bible says..
“Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life.”. Proverbs 4:23
You see, I care about the course of my life. I care about my future and what’s next for Jen and I want my heart whole.
You should care about your heart and the course it’s on too. Ask your heart how it’s doing and listen to what it has to say.